for youWhat do all the insights help when the pain is oh so sweet that you don't want to give it away.
What do all the lessons and wisdom help when you hold on to suffering.
When you want to hold on to suffering.
What else should we affix our thoughts to?
In what else should we believe, if not the constancy of things - to be disappointed.
The pain is an addiction from which we cannot be freed.
An addiction from which there is no liberation.
Without willpower, without courage, without meaning in life.
As soon as he leaves me I will sink in it again.
I can feel it, it already burns.
I licked the sugar and caught fire and then I will be flambéed and steamed out.
The embers will perish in tears and the blood of my hurt heart.
We will go our separate ways, drift away from eachother, turn our backs to eachother and only our fingertips will still touch eachother.
They will try to hold on, but our hands will dissolve like in one of Dalí's pictures, drip down into a lake of sadness an